I have the privilege of a great boyfriend. He is loving, patient, funny, and we go together well. We watch romantic comedies that he is way more into than I am, and have quiet times doing homework together. It's been almost six months, and I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I can convince my head that I am worthy of love and adoration, but my heart is still incredibly nervous, and worried every time he finds out one of my faults. I have many faults, We all do, even he does. My problem is balancing my faults with my good qualities, because I haven't conditioned myself to see those. My boyfriend sees them, for whatever reason, and it's enough for him. It's been six months of laundry, movies, and late night runs to frozen yogurt. And maybe, just maybe, I do deserve this one. We accept the love we think we deserve, and I am incredibly lucky to have the love in my life that I do.
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